I am not a rebel — I truly believe in me, my Hakka Noodles and my pairs of AussieBum [Don’t Read!]
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As I consume my Comfort Food with undivided attention, while expecting my appetite to reduce massively over the coming days, I decided I am going to share my journey as it unfolds, on the sidelines of committed binge-eating.
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As an entrepreneur I have always been very skeptical of sharing my ailments publicly, as they challenged me in 2010, 2012, 2015, 2016, 2017 and now 2019. But staying true to my ‘almost Naked CEO’ principle I have often shared just enough to keep people informed who they are working with or for, or are connected to. Mostly I have done this privately by reaching out to clients, friends, family — people who I believed matter (let’s say top 100 — emotionally and logistically).
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TODAY, I change this.
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I WILL SHARE.
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I WILL SHARE WITHOUT FEAR OR REGRET!
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In the past and present (yes even last and this week), people have walked away when they felt ‘oh, he is going to be of no use to my journey now’. In the past and present, people have stood with me reminding me, ‘I am here, no matter what’ — and this includes professional connections and clients. I am thankful for BOTH. Former taught me signs to notice of people who are just in my life for convenience, and latter are my assurance that I have a very healthy support network.
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As I gorge on this humongous bowl of Hakka Noodles in Chicken Stock, in Chili Vinegar I am not at all afraid of either the medical process, or people who are going to show their true colors while they foolishly and selfishly assume, ‘oh he is dying, he is worthless now!’. I am not bothered about those judging my absence or disconnected approach since last 3+ weeks. 10 years ago, It would eat me up on the inside.
TODAY, I am doing this MY WAY and without a worry about those who do not value my journey as I have valued theirs. I say valued, because no matter how you are connected to me, if you are connected to me, if you have spent 10 minutes with me, if you have ever shared your journey with me, any part of it — I value your reality. I honor your truth and I appreciate your challenges even if I may not understand them. I may not have the right or opportunity to be your strongest support, but I have been, am and will be there for those who trust me with their journey.
And those who decided or decide to hit the EJECT button the moment they felt I may not be as ‘useful’ to them as they thought, do not matter to me. Not their choice to walk EJECT and Walk-Away, not their judgement, nor their questions or curiosity. But I am grateful for you showing me your real character and saving me from trusting you any longer than I should have. Thank you for teaching me the signs to watch for in my networking.
And those who decided to stick with me since 2010 and every other year I mentioned and now —
THANK YOU!
I am thankful for you never giving up on me and in fact keep reminding me what I am capable of. More importantly, when I stood up again, walked, ran and conquered again and you took the time to remind me, “I always knew you can do this, I always believed in you!”
Because your belief in me is one thing that kept me going along with my determination to never give up. As long as I am breathing, any challenge, any hurdle, any setback will just have to bite the dust because I, baby, am no quitter.
People who matter know what I needed to tell them. People who believe they matter but don’t have any clarity need to understand that I have more than one dynamic with you and it is my choice to just share, ‘I am looking after me and I will be more than okay’. Asking more, speculating more, assuming more, is your own choice, and not my burden to bear. What matters is if you choose to support no matter what or join the EJECTION gang. Again, your burden to bear, not mine. Either way, I will only be grateful for the choices you make.
What is going to change?
Nothing.
A few things. Something.
Everything. Nothing!
It really is in how you see it and what your mindset is.
There are things that will be a little different for a little while. There are other things that will be just the same as always. You will see me making some changes in my personal and professional life. You will also see me carrying on some things in my personal and professional life as they have been. You will see me smiling, laughing, making a fool of myself, being kind, being stubborn, getting frustrated, being patient. All of it, as it has always been, with some tweaks invoked by the realities of life.
Will you see lots of sob stories, whining and sympathy search posts?
NOPE!
My goal is very clear and my mission has not and will not change. I will continue be the #INSPIRE mind, voice and advocate, non-stop.
I will continue to post things that may help or change a life for too. I will continue to make an effort to #INSPIRE a smile, a dream, a mission wherever my efforts can take you.
I will continue to be brand director for many, royal pain in the ass consultant for some, annoying stickler for rules for a few.
I will continue to be the loud and obnoxious host on my talks-shows.
I might slow down for a little while. I might be less frequent. I might get tired easily. BUT I will continue to engage, entertain or annoy you -whatever our relationship has been.
My Commitment To Myself
In writing this, I am making a commitment to myself — to live and celebrate every moment going forward without regret or fear. I will not succumb to the fear of being judged, hated, disliked, rejected, isolated. I will not give-in to the pressure of incorrigibly curious investigators, per say. I will not alter who I am, where I have come, what I have become as a person — to please or accommodate anyone’s ‘expectations’ of me.
I am committed to honor myself, love myself and #INSPIRE myself from within, to continue to be the voice of my truth, be the best friend of myself and to Dream Big and Make It Happen until the last breath of my life.
Your conclusions of this article, coming days, years, decades — do not matter and will not run my life.
I know who I am, I know where I am going, and I know why.
That Is All!
Szebastian Onne #INSPIRE
the ‘almost Naked CEO’, Proud Puppy-Daddy, Own 93 pairs of @aussieBum, Unapologetic in sharing my Success & Failures with fierce #Pride
